100 Thoughts/Things List

100 Thoughts/Things List:

1. 1. I'm always late to join these things
2. 2. I really need more coffee
3. 3. But coffee makes me so hyper and paranoid last time I ODed on coffee I was convinced someone stole my car.
4. 4. I'm tired
5. 5. Really tired.
6. 6. I went to bed at 1:30 and tossed and turned all night.
7. 7. Kailey got up at 7 and started talking loudly in my ears.
8. 8. I wanted to throw her off the bed like we used to do to the cat.
9. 9. But then I realize she's just a "little girl" like she likes to remind me all the time.
10. 10. I love her, I really do.
11. 11. It is really incredible to me how she's turning into a real little person.
12. 12. She's so opinionated.
13. 13. Sometimes its funny, sometimes it makes you want to kill her.
14. 14. Cameron is a late sleeper lately.
15. 15. God Bless Cameron for sleeping late, I don't know if I could handle the both of them in my face before my eyes are focusing.
16. 16. I've really turned into a lazy butt since staying home, I don't even pretend to try to wake up when Rich leaves in the morning.
17. 17. Which is pretty rude on my part and I'm sure it makes it hard for him to go to work in the morning.
18. 18. Getting back to an earlier point, maybe I need to drink more coffee.
19. 19. My house is a wreck.
20. 20. I do care about it being messy, I'm just too tired to rebuild it everyday.
21. 21. I swear I work 2 hours on one area trying to get things in order and when I turn around there is a completely new disaster to deal with.
22. 22. I hate putting away laundry.
23. 23. I have two baskets -- wait make that 4 baskets -- waiting to be put away.
24. 24. Today is not looking like there day, tomorrow either.
25. 25. Last night I laid away in bed making mental lists of things I need to do to organize our backyard so its better for the kids to play in.
26. 26. It is pretty neurotic that I lay awake at night making lists in my head all the time.
27. 27. Sometimes when my kids come up to me and look up at me with their big blue eyes and say something cute, I mentally take a picture (wishing I'd taken a real picture). I wish I could freeze those moments in times.
28. 28. I spend so much time worrying that my kids are growing up too fast, that I think I don't just stop and enjoy them now.
29. 29. I can't believe my kids have blue eyes. I never thought that would happen.
30. 30. I can't believe my kids are both so darn loud.
31. 31. I love them but some days I wish they had muzzles for toddlers. Or at least a volume button.
32. 32. 2 cups of coffee and I just want to take a nap. This pot must be a dud.
33. 33. I like my coffee with 1/2 packet of Sugar Free Swiss Miss.
34. 34. Some times I'm jealous Rich gets to go sit in an office and have big boy meetings about million dollar computer systems.
35. 35. Most of the time I'm glad I get to be home.
36. 36. I always wanted to stay home, but was to chicken to do it.
37. 37. Getting laid off was a blessing, really.
38. 38. I need to be a better planner.
39. 39. I need to stay home more.
40. 40. I was trying to leave the house everday with the kids, but there is no such thing as a quick trip with them any more.
41. 41. We went to Chick Fil A 3 times in one week because it was 112 degrees outside.
42. 42. I'm so ready for the weather to get cooler.
43. 43. I'm scared to get our electric bill with everyday this month being over 100, I'm sure it will be over $600.
44. 44. That makes me ill.
45. 45. We're getting our carpet replaced Friday by Stainmaster.
46. 46. My kids spilled jello two places that will not come up, so they are replacing it.
47. 47. I'm shocked about that.
48. 48. I contemplating dumping my coffee on the stairs just because I can since they are replacing it.
49. 49. But then I realize that is stupid.
50. 50. And I live with two copy-cats
51. 51. I have no idea what I'm going to buy Kailey for her birthday.
52. 52. I'm sure she'll love anything but I want to get her something she will be really excited about.
53. 53. I'm trying to talk her into taking our queen bed from downstairs and getting new bedding.
54. 54. Then giving Cam her bed.
55. 55. But then I'm scared to put Cam in a big boy bed.
56. 56. Kailey is a terrible sleeper.
57. 57. She gets up 7,000 times before she finally passes out.
58. 58. If Cameron does the same thing, I'll need coffee in an IV.
59. 59. Maybe I can just start taking caffeine pills.
60. 60. Do they make such a thing?
61. 61. I have literally 3,000 pictures to edit.
62. 62. I work on them at night until I pass out.
63. 63. I hope I finish one of the two projects soon.
64. 64. We're doing another girls' sewing night this week.
65. 65. I'm hoping it goes well.
66. 66. We're doing pajama pants.
67. 67. I hope they turn out ok, I've never made pants before.
68. 68. Unless you count the Bull costumes I made for work. Those had legs.
69. 69. I'm ready to start making all the beds.
70. 70. I really need to change the sheets on our bed.
71. 71. But I know Cameron will try to jump and stand on the sheets while I'm working.
72. 72. He kills my back.
73. 73. I love that little boy so much.
74. 74. I didn't know about having a boy before he was born.
75. 75. I guess I was afraid he'd be all rough and boyish.
76. 76. But really he's a sweetheart.
77. 77. I love his hugs and how soft his hair feels on my face when he hugs me.
78. 78. I love that he says, "I wub you mommy."
79. 79. I think his voice is so cute.
80. 80. Rich always thinks I'm making fun of him when I mimic him.
81. 81. But I'm not, I just think he's so darn cute.
82. 82. I used to worry about his Poland's syndrome everyday.
83. 83. I worried he would need therapy or not be strong.
84. 84. Now I worry he will be "that kid" on the little league football team that all the other parents hate because he's so big and rough.
85. 85. Some days I think Cameron will be as tall as his uncle Raymon.
86. 86. Which makes me think we'll need another fridge to store all the food to feed him when he's in high school.
87. 87. Cameron called his "Ukey" last night.
88. 88. They did rounds of "you want to pay at my house", "you want to come to MY house", "I gots wots of toys.","yeah".
89. 89. They are so cute even if they do try to kill each other over a toy ocassionally.
90. 90. Cameron is so lucky to have Luke born so close to him.
91. 91. It is like his built in BFF.
92. 92. I think I need more friends.
93. 93. Some how I feel disconnected from all my working mom friends now.
94. 94. At birthday parties sometimes I feel really insecure because all the moms talk about work and I have nothing to bring except a story of about Cameron smearing poop somewhere again.
95. 95. I think I need to join a mom's group that is closer to my house. Sometimes I feel like all the stay at home moms are on the other side of the city.
96. 96. I'm so nervous about the kids' starting preschool.
97. 97. I worry that I should keep Cameron at home and save the money.
98. 98. I can't bare him having bad separation anxiety again.
99. 99. I hear Kailey being Miss Bossy Pants.
100. 100. Sometimes I worry, Cameron agrees to her plans so easily. She will get him killed.